it's not always about numbers, it is Always about changing a person's life.

In my Kinesiology class, we are required are to do two hours of community service. I am a volunteer leader at Coastal Community Church; so I decided to just use that as my community service, even though I definitely have put in more than two hours. Then we had to write about the experience and relate it to bible verses and the 7 wellness of health so here it is;


Every tuesday from 5:00 till 8:30, I go to Coastal Community Church and serve with the

middle school youth group called Uprising. I have been involved with this youth group since last

February, but really started working with the middle schoolers this fall. I have known the youth

pastor Sean Clements and his wife Melissa for about six years. Every Tuesday I get there early

and help set up. We break out tables and chairs and prepare food. I also started leading a creative

skit team two months ago. A few kids come early and we make videos about respecting each

other and the church, and then each week a video is played at the service. There are about eleven

other volunteers that come and help with the youth also. Uprising has about thirty middle

schoolers on a good Tuesday night. This experience focuses on all seven wellness' of

health. Spending time with the kids and getting to know them on a daily basis and encourage

them to grow on their walk with God deal with emotional, social, and spiritual wellness. The

physical wellness plays apart because we play games every week outside that involve running

around like capture the flag or freeze tag. Intellectual wellness is important because the kids are

learning about themselves and what they want to believe in. Environmental is apart of the youth

group because we teach the youth to take of the church and themselves. The last wellness is

occupational, Uprising has created a healthy environment for the youth, but also me. Since I am

a leader there, and the kids look up to me, being apart of Uprising helps me learn what I need to

do to set a better example for them. I chose this experience because I’ve helping others and I

love kids. Uprising has made be find out more about myself and my decision making. Whenever

I do something I think of the kids.

The bible verse “We love because he first loved us” from 1 John 4:19, is very important

to me. I love these kids, because Jesus loves me. I can show them how much Jesus can love them

through hanging out with them. The other verse comes from Ephesians 4:11-13, “It was He who

gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors

and teachers, to prepare God’s people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be

built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become

mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.” I have applied this verse to this

experience by understanding that God has a purpose for everyone. My purpose at Uprising is

have a serving kind heart towards the kids. My relationship with Christ has grown since

Uprising, and it will continue to grow.




I take time out of my life to go and hangout with these kids and make a difference in their life. It gets me through my week. Churches should stop focusing on how many people show up, it will happen just dont focus on it! Focus on getting a message to them, students don't know you care until you show them you care.

major, minor

after changing my major three times i have finally decided!

Major-Communication Emphasis-Communication
Minor-Sociology

song of the week

back to december- Taylor swift


I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me will still burn in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
standin' in front of you, sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom aint nothin' but missin' you, wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleepin'
Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughin' from the passenger side and
I realized I loved you in the fall
Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride, standin' in front of you, sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom aint nothin' but missin' you, wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride, standin' in front of you, sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom aint nothin' but missin' you, wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it aright
i go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
All the time



Okay i really don't care for taylor swift anymore, she is horrible live. but she can write amazing lyrics.

I think it shows a more humble side of Taylor that we rarely get to see in her songs. She's usually singing about how she was right and someone did her wrong (You're Not Sorry, Picture to Burn, Should Have Said No, Forever & Always, White Horse, etc), or how she's better than her crush's girlfriend(Speak Now, You Belong With Me). Here, she's acknowledging that she made mistakes and she's apologizing to the person she hurt. It actually reminds me of Breathe, which is one of my favorite songs.

The lyrics are pretty straightforward;She's meeting with her ex and admitting that she wasn't treating him right when they were together.

Then she goes on to say that she remembers the moments they spent together, how it was fun in the beginning, how she realized she was in love with him and finally how she got scared and decided to leave him. This is the moment she keeps going back to in her mind. She wishes she could have known what he meant to her back when they were still together, before she broke up with him.At the end of the song, she says that she misses him and that she wants to get back with him, but that she understands if he's scared of being hurt again.

For me, the point of the song is much more about realizing what you have before it's too late than about trying to guess which of taylor's ex-boyfriend this song is about.

bbc book list

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma -Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - A.A. Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Inferno - Dante
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - E.B. White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

I have some reading to do :D

thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving! :]

feelings

feelings are not facts

song of the week

Talking in Code- Margot and Nuclear So and Sos

I gotta go and you're talking in code,
saying I know where you've been,
And I know where you go.

But I've been tired
from the minute I woke,
I stopped listening
the moment you spoke,
And said I'm long gone.
Yeah I'm long gone....

And I'm sleeping alone,
In a house I don't own,
'Cause if you're touring your mind,
You'll get lost everytime.

And you'll sing me sad songs
to keep me awake,
in that bedroom we hid away.
Baby I'm long gone,
Yeah I'm long gone....

And your voice cracks like a piano,
You keep moving
but where are you going.
Baby we're long gone,
Yeah we're long gone....

All my friends are getting married...im just getting lonely.

Numbers have so much control in my life, especially when it comes to age. I have this problem where i compare myself to people, not to their bodies or their cars, or whatever is important to others, but to their age. im a student in college and people my age are getting engaged and marries and even already have kids

I think it has really made me notice the expectations that come with age. In life people ask your age and assume things with it - looking at buying your own place? graduating this year? married? kids?



I dont understand where this age pressure comes from, i could understand it if it was about looks or similar due to advertising and the such.
I'm tired of always looking for someone, im ready for a real relationship, even just a good friendship would be nice.
I thought I made new friends this school year but they have all stopped talking to me now. I don't understand, you would THINK at a christian school people would be nicer, but they are just fake. Probably transferring to COFC next fall

push and shove

if you wanna push then i'm ready to push, but if you're pulling while i'm pushing then why'd you ask me to push?






I lack the ability to become close to people, it's not that i don't want to its that i don't know how, almost as if i have nothing to offer, and maybe i don't - well didn't, but now i am not so sure, i hope that my confidence and sense of me will flow back into me.

song of the week

december-lydia


It was four or five of everything, as you are no good.
I saw it through the frame and through my face.
Covering my eyes, because we are nothing, and never quite the same from a black and white summer.
With photographs that showed our rails and razorblades.
I think it cured my pain, again.

Promise you will go down my neck,
Just like those pills and your cigarette.

So as my fingers curl, I move my lips just so you won't have to.
Damnit you clever girl, your style is keeping us from sleep. One more and I'm free, oh we've been so lucky, yeah we've been so likely to lose. So give in, let's give in.

It's all suicide if I hide.
Because you are everywhere I look and in my skin.
I taste your neck and lips just from breathing in.
Let's call it off kid.
But through the window you reach for the cold.
But the door is so much closer, and the sun has sold itself to the land and all over my skin.
No! No! Stop it, stop him.

So what, so what, we all were all afraid.
So this I swear I know, it's not the chemicals.
You are off my mind, I finally got away.
You said it's such a life to remember, so come on, and we'll sleep away Decemeber.
It was you, bringing your white company.
Bringing the night so it seemed.
And we will never sleep again.
So as you walk through the door, and yell I'm never coming back here.
It's over we are still nothing.

in like

we've been here once before.
i feel like we have already tried this
so why are you coming back?
we know it can't happen any time soon.
summer 2011 please come faster
i am so in like with you